...And now a break in my entries to bring random thought #1

I just realized today - 

sitting in one of my classes

After a long night with little sleep - 

And an early morning run in the bitter cold - 

the teacher drowns on and on , as my mind runs away

I MUST GET AWAY

My spirit, pained to no end, is trapped inside my own body

My fiery blood punches my even temper in the guy

And I cannot breathe

cry out --- the energy builds

cry out --- But I do not

cry out --- just do it now

cry out --- its now or never, but I cannot

cry out, cry out, cry out --- why can't I cry out?

Sitting at my desk, the teacher is still talking

And I come to the realization

After a long night with little sleep

And and early morning run in the bitter cold 

I MUST GET AWAY

I need to find a quiet place

Away from all this noise, all these people, all the voices

I cannot think, I cannot hear myself thinking

I need time alone - 

I want to remember what my own voices sounds like - 

How glorious it would be to be alone in pace

And as I realized this today in class,

After a long night with little sleep

And an early morning run in the bitter cold

those late, late nights - 

From dusk till dawn are my only time alone, 

if only this whole world were one long night -

one long peace

-Comparative Politics Class, 15 Jan 2004