Waiting to Board the Plane, Sitting in Terminal C Gate 22

I wish you could see how much this hurts
These wounds inflicted on my heart
Everytime I leave your side.
It always feels as if you've punched me in the gut
And as I fell down to the ground
You pushed your foot into my side
There's nothing I can do to stop this pain
I try my best to take a breath
But all that leaves my mouth is sobs
Ain't this love such a bitch

It's times like these I try to duck and hide away
And I just want to curl up in a ball
But that ain't practical at all
I always have somewhere I have to be
My gut is wrenched, my soul is battered
Broken, shattered, bruised, and empy
I'm stark raving crazy when I think of your face baby
And all at once I think, I wish,
That I had never met you
Ain't this love such a bitch

You move your foot and leave a hole
A hole that fills itself with emptiness
With every thought that you aren't here
Eventually I'll be ok, I swear to God there'll be a day
When I'll remember what its like to breathe--
I'll smile when I think of you
And I know we'll part again and again
But for all this pain, for all this fucking pain
You're worth it my love, I'll do it again
Ain't this love such a God Damn Bitch

The Road

I remember when i used to sleep
Before I met the road....

The road is long
The journey is hard but sleep is out of the question.

The Wind

Dreary mood, contained in walls
the wind seeps in
my mind is swept away
carried as a part of the wind
the window closes
my mind returns
the wind is shut out
contained again
dreary mood, contained in walls

I am alone

Feeling #1

I open my eyes

I imagine my heart a cold empty stone

I focus my breathing

i am a machine

my mind is no longer my own

my body tells me what i need

i eat, i sleep, i sit, i stand

I walk, i stare, i run, i obey

I think of nothing

I imagine a black empty room

and nothing gets to me

nothing I feel

my eyes are lifeless

I feel no pain

the machine inside me

defeats my dreams

the machine inside me

lets no thoughts go through

my mind covered in darkness

my heart heavy as stone

keeps me living

emotion would kill me

i am alone

Feeling #2

What would I do if you weren't there

How would i feel if you didn't care

How would i live if you were to die

When would I stop these tears after I start to cry

you opened me up and made me feel

I laid my heart out for you to steal

and if you were to leave me now

be it by foot or by soul or anyway anyhow

my heart would go with you

and I alone would be blue

because without a heart my blood wont flow

and i'd slowly die with that fatal blow

what would kill me the most

and it wouldnt be your ghost

it would be the fact that I had no control

the flames still engulf me though I duck and roll

the water still drowns me though I kick and scream

I reach out to grab you then realize its only a dream

and I wake up to hear the awful news

i'f fall to the ground and my head would bruise

you are gone form me and i will no longer be