I am alone

Feeling #1

I open my eyes

I imagine my heart a cold empty stone

I focus my breathing

i am a machine

my mind is no longer my own

my body tells me what i need

i eat, i sleep, i sit, i stand

I walk, i stare, i run, i obey

I think of nothing

I imagine a black empty room

and nothing gets to me

nothing I feel

my eyes are lifeless

I feel no pain

the machine inside me

defeats my dreams

the machine inside me

lets no thoughts go through

my mind covered in darkness

my heart heavy as stone

keeps me living

emotion would kill me

i am alone

Feeling #2

What would I do if you weren't there

How would i feel if you didn't care

How would i live if you were to die

When would I stop these tears after I start to cry

you opened me up and made me feel

I laid my heart out for you to steal

and if you were to leave me now

be it by foot or by soul or anyway anyhow

my heart would go with you

and I alone would be blue

because without a heart my blood wont flow

and i'd slowly die with that fatal blow

what would kill me the most

and it wouldnt be your ghost

it would be the fact that I had no control

the flames still engulf me though I duck and roll

the water still drowns me though I kick and scream

I reach out to grab you then realize its only a dream

and I wake up to hear the awful news

i'f fall to the ground and my head would bruise

you are gone form me and i will no longer be